I thought about writing this post yesterday, but I figured that I wouldn't be able to quite tap into the accurate emotions surrounding the initial release date of my book. Now that I'm sitting here and have had plenty of time to stew in my emotions since I woke up this morning, I'm realizing that I'm really not as emotional as I thought... or at all, to be honest.
I think this is a huge growth point in my life as I sit here and realize that everything happens for a reason and that it is not the end of the world. I think I've grown in a lot of ways recently. My priorities are becoming more clear and the pressure that I've been infamous for putting on myself doesn't feel so necessary anymore. I think I'm almost at the point of realizing that I can chill out a little bit.
If you know me or have known me at any point in my life, you probably know that I'm a little bit emotionally invested in everything. I can cry at the drop of a hat and I can't tell you how many times I've cried over deadlines in the past whether it was because of homework, projects, books, etc.
Maybe I can thank Devin for a portion of this shift that I've been making. He's awfully relaxed over the things that light my hair on fire. Except for last night; we bascially switched places. I left Devin working on a discussion assignment for one of his classes while I went to go take a shower. When I got out of the shower, I found him asleep on the floor. A very unhappy Devin got up and continued working on his discussion, not even realizing when he fell asleep.
Let's fast forward to a few minutes later when he finished typing up his discussion and went to submit it, but the website timed out and he lost the whole thing. Part of me thought he was just going to say "Screw it." and go take a shower so he can go to bed. Mind you, this was around 12:30-1:00 a.m.
Knowing that I type twice as fast as he does, he looked at me and said "I need you to type this, I'm gonna flip out. I'm going downstairs to get some ice cream and then I'm coming back up and I'll tell you what to type."
He came back up, a bowl of ice cream in hand, and we sat together and got it done. Thankfully, he was awake enough to remember what he'd typed mere minutes before the whole ordeal which sped up the process a great deal.
The moral of the story is that for once, I was the calm, level-headed one. I think he had something to do with my acceptance of the postponing of my book release. I guess what I'm trying to say is that teamwork with the right person is a blessing and makes everything easier. I couldn't be more grateful.
I hope each and every one of you get to meet and keep someone who does the same for you.
For those of you who might've missed it, Clean Slate's new release date is October 16, 2020.